The following is a reflection written by Kendal Conner, a 2011 Union graduate who works as a groups minister at Redeemer Fellowship Church in Kansas City, Missouri.
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Although I often tell the story of Feb. 5, 2008, I rarely tell of Feb. 6.
Yet, when I was recently asked to describe “one snapshot from my life that shaped who I am today,” I could have chosen from a dozen formative moments in my life. But this is the story that came to mind.
It was the morning after the tornado. I will never forget my mom arriving to Jackson early that morning and us heading over to campus in the small hope I might be able to retrieve anything I owned. Only a few hours earlier we had received the news that every student made it out alive. As we ascended the hill from Pleasant Plains Road, I will never forget seeing the view.
Less than 24 hours earlier, I was running across campus through this same rubble in my $2 Old Navy flip flops. But now, seeing it illuminated by the light, my heart sank. For the first time in 24 hours, my mind stopped rushing and the true weight of what had happened finally sank in.
This is what I see when I think of a moment that shaped who I am. This moment — seeing the immensity of the destruction, yet officially knowing that the 200 body bags brought to campus that night had left campus that morning — EMPTY! In this moment, I thought, “This, THIS, is the Lord our God!”
Even if the outcome had been different, I know he would have shown his faithfulness in other ways. But I am forever changed because God chose to work the way he did that night — in the rescue from the rubble. I am who I am today because, that morning, the Lord tangibly reminded me that I am not promised tomorrow. It is today that we have been called to — God owns tomorrow. I chose in that moment to give all I have to the Lord. My life is not my own anyway, so I would use it however the Lord led. Because if this is our God, then to what else could I possibly desire to give my life?